I think it is only fair to share with ya'll where I am at in regards to school since I spent a lengthy post talking about possible ending it.
In this past week, I finished my second semester of my first year of graduate school. Everyone please keep your fingers crossed that I pass my New Testament class. This good student over here chose to not pay attention all semester and then was presented with an essay question test with questions she had no idea what the answers were. Yeah, I know super great decision on my part. You'd think I would have tested this out in high school or undergrad. Nope! I decided graduate school was the best time to try and see how that all works out.
Sorry for that tangent. Any who, I finished this week and I start my summer term the first week in May. That will be two months of intense school work and then I am done until September. And being done could also mean being done for good or maybe just a year. I have spent the past few weeks applying for jobs in the admission counselor field with high schools and universities. I've also applied for a few administrative assistant jobs.
I realized I am much more of a hands on individual than a sit down and listen to a lecture individual. Part of me is just wanting to get out in to the work force and see what it is like to work a 9-5 job or something along those lines. I think I just need to see what the other side of life is like.
I've been considering a few options to take:
1.) If I get a job as an admissions counselor, I will take a year off and see how I like it. At the end of the year, I will consider if finishing my graduate work is what I want or not what I want.
2.) If a job does not come along, I will take one class in the fall and work as much as I can at the Cheesecake Factory.
3.) I'll take a complete year off and work full-time for some kind of job.
I've been questioning myself why I think this is a good decision because I was so set on moving out here for graduate school. And while I've been asking myself that, I have come to discover a lot:
1.) I thought I needed an excuse to move to Washington and school became my excuse.
2.) I never wanted to be a college graduate that was in the statistics of other college graduates who did not have a plan for after college.
3.) I wanted to make everyone around me proud and I created an idea and dream that everyone could be proud of including myself, but I am realizing that maybe its not what I want to pursue in the long run.
These past few weeks have been filled with lots of questions, but I am encouraged by these two quotes:
"I hope that in this year to come, you make mistakes. Because if you are making mistakes, then you are making new things, trying new things, learning, living, pushing yourself, changing yourself, changing your world. You're doing things you've never done before and more importantly, you're doing something. Don't freeze, don't stop, don't worry that it isn't good enough, or it isn't perfect. Whatever it is: art, or love, or work or family or life. Whatever it is you're scared of doing, do it. Make your mistakes, next year and forever. "
-Neil Gaiman-
Prayers, kind words, and any job sources in Washington are greatly appreciated.
