Missing this space

My blogging has been minimal lately and I will not lie...

I miss this space.

But part of me also feels like this space is not the same for me anymore.

The graduate school journey for me requires that I share my passion, heart, and life with my cohort and the idea of sharing it on here as well seems plain exhausting.

But I still miss this area.

I miss my 5 day's a week blogging goal and I miss the community of it.

Reading blogs throughout this school year got me through many long classes, but I could never convince myself to write blog posts during those classes. I think I wrote just a few blog posts while I was in class. I've been thinking lately that I need to get back into a routine of blogging, but some of the things I want to write about scares me. 

I am scared ya'll might think I am crazy, weird, or think I shouldn't be sharing some of the stuff I want to share. But this year of graduate school has changed me a lot. I've learned that everyone has a story about their family of origin and that we all have a tragedy story. I've learned that I'm a racist and that I treat people of different skin color badly. I've learned that my faith has changed dramatically and it may never return to the place it once was. I could go on and on, but I am not sure you want to hear it all.

Yet these are the things I want to write about, but I'm scared you may judge me.

Can I write about what I learned in my multicultural class?

Can I write about my family of origin?

Can I write about my lost faith?

Will you still receive my words with kindness and grace?

I want to return to this space, but part of me says I can't and I don't know what to do with that.

Am I in a blogging rut? Is this normal for bloggers? 

Does any body have answers for me?

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