Hello Forgiveness!

These last couple of weeks I have been personally dealing with relationships and I guess just realizing how things can change in over a year and how much I have changed in over a year. I can't help but think about the person I was last year, who I was with, who I relied on, etc. It's weird to think that some of the most important people on my life at that point of time are no longer as important to me as they once were.

A year ago I was encountering a relationship with one of my best guy friends. I remember we were both testing the waters and seeing where we stood with each other and I remember the innocence behind it. We were just two friends who were scared to put ourselves out there, but curious as to where this relationship could take us. Thanksgiving was when he finally told me he was interested in me as more than a friend and I was beyond excited. I was getting to the point where I was about to give up on the idea of being with him because I just had no idea what he was thinking. It kind of took off from there. He became one of my best friends and I relied on him a lot. He supported me, encouraged me, and loved me for me. But with even that, relationships do not always make it through and ours fell apart. I will admit I blame myself for a lot of it, but I also don't regret my decision. It's made me who I am today, but back to the point of this point.

I have always told people that forgiveness is super important and no relationship can be fixed until both people are willing to forgive each other. Well, I realized today that someone may not be living up to their talk. Being in a relationship requires a lot out of someone and even if it doesn't last long you give a part of your heart away no matter what. Just by saying yes to someone gives a piece away.

I thought I had forgiven the guys I had been in relationships with (let me say, not all of the relationships were bad, but that doesn't mean there isn't hurt) but I really hadn't. So here's my first step to forgiveness and I guess that is to actually try with effort on my part to start forgiving. Just by saying that I can tell a weight is slowly being lifted.

I'll let you know how the rest goes... Pin It